Life is good because I’m juking Drama

Life is good because I’m juking Drama

Everyday I’m pushing myself to success. I want to be successful. I HAVE to be successful. There are a few people counting on me, so it makes going to meetings, working out and doing other things I may not feel like or feel comfortable doing easier. 

Sometimes I wonder why it’s taking so long, but I can only put the blame on myself. I haven’t done everything necessary, and a lot of times I really didn’t know what to do. If you just make a move though… then make another move and keep moving, before you know it, you will be asking yourself how you got here. 

All I know is that when want something bad enough, you will do what’s necessary to make it happen.  -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

Twinkle Toes

Twinkle Toes

I love to dance. I’ve been dancing since I was in 5th grade when I saw some girls dancing outside at school. It was play time, and I was the new kid. I never realized this new school was the beginning of a new life. So I went home and practiced. I practiced everyday with my little radio turned down really low so my mom wouldn’t here Power 98 and all their “unholy” music. 

I was loving all these sounds that didn’t sound the same. It wasn’t “church music”. How could all this music be corrupting me? I just feel like I’ve discovered something great. People being free to write what they felt to a melody without organs and a choir director… and it made me want to dance, so I did! -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

Patience and failure

Patience and failure

Just like we can’t live off of one vitamin and have a balanced system, having patience without hustle, drive, desire, wisdom, etc, can mean failure. 

“Be patient, it will come.” – people say

I say, “No the fuck it won’t if you ain’t doing shit”. 

There are too many people “waiting on the Lord” which equals waiting for some gold to fall out the sky or someone to put something in your hands.

Sooooo there are still some people waiting for absolutely nothing and they don’t even know it. Stop waiting and get some shit done please! -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

You know what had me scared?

You know what had me scared?

You know what had me scared shitless to try anything? It was Christianity. Maaaaan, it had me feeling like I could never do shit! 

I heard stuff like, “Don’t go into business with unbelievers”, “You’re a Christian”, “You need to go to church to be under a covering” ( wtf does that even mean!!!???), “You need to pray in tongues more”, “You need to stop writing your book, you just need to forgive and be healed of the past”, “The Lord told me you were pregnant, so I made you this blanket”, “The Lord doesn’t want you to step out without him, you will walk right from under his covering”…. etc etc… that’s what my life was, and it’s been hard to get rid of all this shit that was put in my head. -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

Going to hell?

Going to hell?

I have a lot of things to say about telling someone they’re going to hell. Mind your business so you can do something with your life. 

When I cussed for the first  time I was like, “God forgive me. I don’t want to go to hell” (I think I was like 8)

I just think differently about the heaven hell situation. -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

He’s engagaed… AGAIN

He’s engagaed… AGAIN

He’s engagaed… AGAIN. This is not the first, second, or third time. 

Maybe this time it’ll work out. Maybe this is the woman he’s been waiting for all his life. Maybe he’s finally ready to settle down and be a husband. Not a father, but maybe a husband. 

Ooooorrrrr, since he just became pastor of a church 😐, maybe he needs her to be his slave like my mom was. 

But what’s going through her head? Why is she willing to say yes to this man who has no relationship with his children? I’m sure he’s lied to her too, but the type of person I am, I need background info. I guess she just doesn’t give a fuck, she about to be a “Preacher’s Wife” -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

Thinkin about him… 

Thinkin about him… 

Yea I said it. I’ve been thinking about him lately. I wish our relationship would work out, but it takes two. I’ve been through too much shit with him to just let him in. Nah I don’t want to talk to him. Nah I don’t want to write him. I’ll just think about some good times and try not allow them to lead to bad ones… but they normally do. The good times never lasted. It always went from good to bad, sometimes before we left the damn driveway. -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

Who is this girl I love to hate

Who is this girl I love to hate

It’s easier to express myself to something that doesn’t talk back. I just want to say whatever I feel like saying. Today I need to talk about me. This girl who I use to be proud of. I ran out of patience for myself. Well damnit no more pity parties. Get your shit together. Wipe away those tears and get yo ass up and do whatever it is you need to do so you can love yourself again. You can do it! Believe in who you are and make this shit happen!  -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter