Sometimes I need to write. Sometimes I need to talk. Sometimes I need to draw. Sometimes I need to paint. Sometimes I need to sew. Sometimes I need to sing. Sometimes I need to rap. Sometimes I need to burn. Sometimes I need chemistry. Sometimes I need math. But all the time I need to Fuckin Create shit! -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
So much has happened. So much going on. So many fuckin thoughts so many damn dreams. So much more control. So much more creativity. See So much more clearly. So much more scary. So much more vocal. So much more visual. So much more available. So much less available. So much more valuable. So much more aware. So much weight loss. So much more caring, yet I care so much less. Damn so much. -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
Over the past couple months. I’ve completely redirected my energy. I changed my life. For YEARS I’ve focused my attention on everyone else. What do they need? What do they like? What do they want? What do I have to give them?
My thoughts are in a whole other place right now. Not that I don’t want to do for people. But from now on… self first. Without self, how the hell can I help anyone else. If folk don’t understand… 🤷🏽♀️ -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
People be acting funny… but then I wonder if I’m doing enough to see significant results. Maybe the way I’m doing things is the problem. Maybe I’m doing just fine but need to be patient. When money needs to be put in the account, you can’t just live off of patience.
So what are the next steps? The only thing I know to do, go harder and keep going -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
I’m proud of the person I’m becoming. Making decisions to better me and my life.
It’s not always about everybody else. Everybody else doesn’t focus on yooouu!
It’s necessary to come into your own, hustle and grind to be the best YOU you can be. People won’t understand, you will have to take a break from people, you will have to make a lot of hard decisions, you’ll have to look like the mean person or bad guy. But it is what the Fuck it is.
When you get to the point to where you want it as bad as you want to to breathe… shit around you changes. The universe starts to align. It’s a process of adjustments, pain, separation, loneliness and feeling like you’re going crazy at times. You spend so much time alone that you start talking to yourself… or in my case, a podcast.
But my life is about to change! -💯 RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
I was taught to be proud of who I am
I was also taught to be ashamed of who I am -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
I’ve been trying to finish this book since 2015. It’s hard because this will be my first book, I feel like I halfway know what I’m doing, I’ve been threatened, I’ve been prayed for, it takes me to a dark place… but I can’t get this book out of my mind. –RealityOfAPreachersDaughter