Work so hard

Work so hard

I work so hard because I know I can do better than this. –RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

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Fall back

Fall back

The time went back this week.

But I’m wondering if I should fall back from people. I wonder if people are tired of me. Tired of looking at my photos of my painted self. Or all the motivational videos I post, or music because I’m trying to keep myself in line and possibly help someone.

Tired of me talking on my podcast about my fucked up day or how lit I got. Tired of my conversations. People say they won’t tire of you, and maybe I should go with that. Believe them. But how? I don’t trust people easy cuz I’ve been hurt a million times. I laid my heart out for it to be misused and I put it in a safe place. Apparently not safe enough, because I’m still loving people. SHIT! -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

Damn so much

Damn so much

So much has happened. So much going on. So many fuckin thoughts so many damn dreams. So much more control. So much more creativity. See So much more clearly. So much more scary. So much more vocal. So much more visual. So much more available. So much less available. So much more valuable. So much more aware. So much weight loss. So much more caring, yet I care so much less. Damn so much. -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

Growth

Growth

Over the past couple months. I’ve completely redirected my energy. I changed my life. For YEARS I’ve focused my attention on everyone else. What do they need? What do they like? What do they want? What do I have to give them?

My thoughts are in a whole other place right now. Not that I don’t want to do for people. But from now on… self first. Without self, how the hell can I help anyone else. If folk don’t understand… 🤷🏽‍♀️ -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

Go harder then

Go harder then

People be acting funny… but then I wonder if I’m doing enough to see significant results. Maybe the way I’m doing things is the problem. Maybe I’m doing just fine but need to be patient. When money needs to be put in the account, you can’t just live off of patience.

So what are the next steps? The only thing I know to do, go harder and keep going -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter