If you’ve been reading my blog, a lot has happened over the years. I’ve had an interesting life as do many people. What separates me from most is that I’ve been through so much shit, that I’m determined to change my life. I’ve made adjustments gradually, but I’ve been more focused on people feelings than what I really needed. That’s the first problem.
When you focus on what everyone else needs versus your own, what do you think will happen? You think you’ll be happy? You think you’ll accomplish your goals? Well unless you trying to be someone’s crutch or burden for the rest of your life, you need to focus on yourself. One step at a time at first, but Figure the shit out! -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
My time in Texas is coming to an end. I have Monday and Tuesday left. It’s been a good eye opening trip. Been here since Dec. 18th.
I got a chance to get outside of my normal routine to change it up. See my life from a different perspective. I’ve grown in these three weeks. I’ve read and absorbed and rejected unnecessary things. I’m better and stronger than I was when I first got here. I know what I want and I’m gonna get it. –RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
Sometimes I need to write. Sometimes I need to talk. Sometimes I need to draw. Sometimes I need to paint. Sometimes I need to sew. Sometimes I need to sing. Sometimes I need to rap. Sometimes I need to burn. Sometimes I need chemistry. Sometimes I need math. But all the time I need to Fuckin Create shit! -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
People be acting funny… but then I wonder if I’m doing enough to see significant results. Maybe the way I’m doing things is the problem. Maybe I’m doing just fine but need to be patient. When money needs to be put in the account, you can’t just live off of patience.
So what are the next steps? The only thing I know to do, go harder and keep going -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
Been way too long
I didn’t just start anything I’m doing. I’ve been writing, dancing, drawing, making music and other stuff for years. Shits gotta change
I’m at the point where it’s either I’m gonna do it, and people are going to know who the fuck I am, or I’m not gonna do this shit any more. The latter is not a damn option
It is what it is –RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
I hear these success stories about the struggle before the big break… I guess that’s where I am. Working working working. Experiencing and trying to let go of my fears.
Fearing success, failure, fame, money, poverty, family… this is why people never get shit. I just couldn’t wait any longer. I’ve been taking chances, putting myself out there. I know one day people will see who I am. Until then, I have to grind hard, then grind harder. -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
You have to love yourself enough to say “No” to everyone else and “Yes” to yourself. I want a damn Bentley Bihhhhh! -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
Do you know what it feels like to watch your family waste away? You ever watch someone’s dreams just disappear as if they never existed?
Don’t be that person!
Live full and die empty – Les Brown
Everyday I’m pushing myself to success. I want to be successful. I HAVE to be successful. There are a few people counting on me, so it makes going to meetings, working out and doing other things I may not feel like or feel comfortable doing easier.
Sometimes I wonder why it’s taking so long, but I can only put the blame on myself. I haven’t done everything necessary, and a lot of times I really didn’t know what to do. If you just make a move though… then make another move and keep moving, before you know it, you will be asking yourself how you got here.
All I know is that when want something bad enough, you will do what’s necessary to make it happen. -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter
Just like we can’t live off of one vitamin and have a balanced system, having patience without hustle, drive, desire, wisdom, etc, can mean failure.
“Be patient, it will come.” – people say
I say, “No the fuck it won’t if you ain’t doing shit”.
There are too many people “waiting on the Lord” which equals waiting for some gold to fall out the sky or someone to put something in your hands.
Sooooo there are still some people waiting for absolutely nothing and they don’t even know it. Stop waiting and get some shit done please! -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter