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13

When I was 13 I was more confident than I am now as an adult. Why is that? 

Fear is real     -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

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Not a damn charity case

Not a damn charity case

I’m not a charity. Don’t treat me as such. I’m an artist just like you. I’m a person just like you. I’m learning just like you. 

So Natural Creativity and Talent… a lot of people get this fucked up. Just because you copied someone else’s work, does not mean you are talented… maybe just skilled at forgery, which makes you a “Fraud”. I’ll come back to this one day. I have plenty to say about this!

Back to what I was saying.

I just don’t think people understand proper communication. I doubt I have a problem with communication because I’m so calculated. I chose the right times to communicate since people get in their feelings so damn quick. I’m like “what the fuck us wrong with YOoUuu?” SMDH

Man… help me God -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter


Go in the trash damnit!

Go in the trash damnit!

Like I’m tossing some shit in the trash can and miss, pick it up, miss, pick it up again, miss. SHIT!!! I feel like I’m aiming right but I’m going around, over, or coming short of the goal.  

All I want to do is fucking throw it away.

Throw away all the fuckery that keeps me down, holds me back, makes me sick, breaks me out, makes me depressed, has me overwhelmed and stressed the fuck out. -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

Face the shit

Face the shit

I’ve avoided writing about my life because the shits still hurts really bad and sometimes I’d rather not deal with all the strong emotions. Opinions like to fly around to discourage the book, but it is what it is. There comes a time where you have to step the fuck up no matter what happens and face your truth. No matter how dirty it is. 

And everyone’s expression is different, so judge me if you want to. -ROAPD

Imperfectly Perfect

Imperfectly Perfect

“Imperfectly Perfect”

I’ve struggled over the years with Perfection. I couldn’t do it if it wasn’t planned out. I couldn’t show it if it had flaws. That’s why there are very few pics of me and even though I’ve been an artist for over 20 years, I never showed my work or considered myself an “artist”. I’ve never been good enough for myself. Only within the past 2 years have I been easing out of my shell I’ve been hiding in until I was “Perfect”.

I realized something when creating this lamp, because I wanted it “flawless”. No matter how hard you work at being perfect, you could never achieve Perfection in the way you think. You are perfect the way you are. That’s what makes us human and not robots.

The lamp has flaws and so do I, but we are still beautiful.

We are “Imperfectly Perfect”

December 2, 2016

Scared shitless

Scared shitless

Don’t want to make a decision because afraid that I’ll make the wrong one. But if I don’t make decisions I’ll end up like my father. 

I admire my father’s commitment to one job for over 25 years, but to think that he lost the job and came out with nothing is sad. 

My mother on the other hand rides with the wind. In my opinion, where the wind blows, she goes. 

I like stability. Creating a foundation to be grounded on. Using my passion to make money. I don’t want to waste my life. I hate wasting time and money.

 There is so much I want to do so I really hope these upcoming decisions change my life for the better. Either way, at least I’m moving forward. –Reality Of A Preacher’s Daughter