I need some support.

Looking over my life and seeing just how messed up some things were make me really mad. Then I have to remember that I have to move on. But I’m going to go back for a minute because I want to.


Just to be clear, I had a couple friends here and there, but after my mom and dad split, everything was unstable. Before the Divorce that I never thought would happen, I went to school and came home to play with my siblings. That was it. Now at the age that I am, I don’t always know how to make friends, and when I do, I sort of back off because I’m afraid I’ll lose them like I’ve lost everyone else.

This shit is sad ain’t it? -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

Was having a good Morning until…

Was having a good Morning until…

He called Got damnit. I don’t have the time, energy or patience to deal with his fuckery. I’ve tried to many times with him and I can’t right now. I don’t want to. He stresses me the fuck out. He’s not a father he’s a leach that sucks you dry from life until you can’t even function. 

I haven’t listened to the voicemail yet. I don’t even know how the fuck he got my damn number. My siblings said they didn’t give it to him.  Who the hell did???? Nobody has my number! 

This is some bullshit. I better write and create some art before I let this consume me today. Look ignorant ass people… don’t give out people’s numbers without their consent got damnit! -RealityOfAPreachersDaughter

Thoughts, Family, Thanksgiving, Self Love

Thoughts, Family, Thanksgiving, Self Love

I don’t always want to be negative on my blog, but it’s my way to vent. It is what it is…

Holidays are different since my mom moved to Texas. It’s frustrating talking to her on the phone because she sounds depressed all the time. She’s the one who decided to move all the way over there with no family or friends close. Just Her And Jesus 🙄. 

No offense to religion, but I just can’t do it. I’ve seen it separate family’s, like mine. 

All I hear is “God has a plan”, “God knows everything”, “are you praying”, “are you going to church”.

Now I’m hearing it from my little brother. “We need to walk in forgiveness”, “stop cussing, you’re a Christian”.

I really dislike people telling me I shouldn’t do something because they think they know what the hell I’m supposed to be doing. I get the least support, and I help the most. 

If I say I just don’t give a fuck no more, than I’ll be the horrible sister that’s acting childish, but if you only knew what was going on, then you’d get it. I refuse to continue to be lied on and lied to, taken advantage of and repremanded for being who I am. If you don’t like it, I don’t care. 

One thing I realized recently is that people will shit on you now while you’re trying to achieve success, people will shit on you later when you actually have success. That’s just the way life is. With that being said, decisions have to be made for your own well being. You can’t help others if you don’t help yourself, but it’s not for you to save the world anyway. Some people need to do some shit for themselves

It’s the holidays so Give, but don’t be taken advantage of…

Happy Thanksgiving