Success means more to me than it means to other people. People don’t take advantage of the possibilities. I never did, because I never really knew what possibilities were around me. 

I see people wasting time and energy all the time on insignifant shit and wondering why they are in the situation they’re in. Well, I’m one of those people making excuses, wasting time and wondering what I’m doing wrong. 

When I’m trying to have fun, I can’t. I’m too worried about making money for bills to be paid. 

I’ve been an artist for over 20 years and haven’t pushed my art to the public, so in the past few weeks, I’m putting my work out and wondering why people aren’t making it go viral. LMAO. I’m tripping myself out with what I’m expecting. 

How the hell am I going to blow up and I just posted my art work yesterday? Then I think, but I’ve been an artist for over 20 years. Then I remember, I’ve hid it because I didn’t think it was good enough to share and 2 because I didn’t want anyone to steal my work. When you read my book, you will understand. 

But my skincare, why isn’t that flying off the shelves? I started at the local farmers market in 2011 and it was slow at first, then took off the next couple years. Things changed at the market and I didn’t stay the entire last year. So why am I expecting all my customers for 6 years to follow me if they don’t know where I went. 

My success is completely up to me and my actions. I need to get out of my feelings and do like Eric Thomas says “grind everyday” because what I’m doing just isn’t cutting it.